Lost College Grad: May 2005

Monday, May 30, 2005

SHH!!!

Nothing really new. Still alive. It's just another quiet night at home. I'll post something new maybe tomorrow.

Later!

Friday, May 27, 2005

They’re watching!

So, because of this post Scotty at work came up to me and asked if I “blogged” I said yeah.

Well, apparently one of the people that follow is every move found this post and told him someone was talking all about him, when actually it’s like a first couple of sentence’s and a free plug for his web site.

So I deemed these people “the Scotty spies.” I don’t care if they read this, the need to find something else to do with their life then worry about my little unknown blog.

It’s like a little brother or sister who is a “tattle tale.” You know who you are!

And it’s annoying.

Know people like that?

Later!

Monday, May 23, 2005

I Walk the Line

It seems to me there is a fine line for everything. How fine, depends on the way you look at things.

For example, I have two jobs one pays more than the other. One I have been doing for about 9 years and the other I have had for a little over a year.

The one I’ve been at is the “safe” job. It pays well and I know what I’m doing. But it does get boring and I get bored easily. The other is sort of new, fun, but I don’t really get feedback and it pays way less. The reason for the second job is because it maybe/could be/should be a chance to find a career.

The thing is I don’t know if I’m good at anything their or I keep getting offered stuff, because I most likely will say yes and I’m being strung along?

And I believe that is a fine, fine line that has to be walked closely and could be hindering me from doing anything else?

Words of wisdom, anyone?

Later!

Friday, May 20, 2005

My TIVO!

In September I bought this little thing called TIVO. The little smiling character grabbed my attention and after seeing the price drop I bought one. And I would never give it up.

This is the greatest thing since Chick-fil-a waffle fries ( I know it doesn’t make much sense, but follow me). I love when I come home and find that TIVO has some suggestions for me, because without TV I would be so lost in random thoughts, it’s the greatest distraction in the world.

TIVO has found things such as “Robot Chicken,” “Home Movies” and, yes, “Unwrapped” on the Food Network. And I like the fact I only have to program it once and it records all the episodes.

I think I like my TIVO more than me. Isn’t that sad?

Anyone else addicted?

Later!

Monday, May 16, 2005

What do you do?

Scotty, someone I work with at one job, wrote a book (I’ll give more info when he gets his full website up but for now its www.scottysays.com ). He always talks about life, relationships and other stuff in a funny, but true comical matter.

He gets serious sometimes and asks this question: “What do you do?”

Seems simple right? And according to him it should be, but everyone I have seen him ask this question to often stumbles including myself. I guess everyone should know what they do and he is not talking about a job or anything like that it’s well What do you do?

So what do I do well right now it seems like this: I do anything in a work environment that I think will help me get further, but seem to end up getting steamed rolled and not appreciated for the time I put in and other things I give up in order to help wherever it may be. I think that’s what I do now.

Sometimes a simple thanks, not even a thank you, will suffice. I think I just need to be in a place where I can be as creative as possible and feel wanted. Is that bad? I dunno.

So, what do you do?

Later!

Friday, May 13, 2005

Less is More?

The title of this post is actually really funny to me. One of the companies I work for uses it constantly.

The thing that gets me is that I do a lot at the company. I “wear many hats” let’s just say some fit better than others. But the reason I stick around I guess is because I came out of college a year ago and had no idea what to do. Since I interned at this place and was hired for some work I just stuck around.

I am one of those people who will do anything new. I’ll try anything at work just to learn something new. I get bored easily so anything new is interesting to me. Now the thing I don’t get is you do all of this stuff and yet the pay does not increase. So I have to keep the job at the amusement park summer job for 5 months to help me get through the winter.

I guess I just feel stuck. I like the fun radio job, but it’s not paying well and the amusement park job that I have had for 9 seasons pays more than the radio. I like how big corporations don’t like to pay people for the time they actually put in.

What to do?

Any ideas?

Or has this happen to anyone else?

Later!

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Thunder, Lightning

Last night we had our first storm. It was small but it had the two essential things, thunder and lightning.

We I was a kid I was terrified of those two things, I don’t know why. I just was scared.

Well, now it’s one of those strange occurrences where I like sitting by the window, or at least have a good view of, what I consider, a great light show. I really like, what I call, heat lightning where you see it flash in the clouds with those low long rumbles of thunder. I think it’s the best part of spring and summer.

Occasionally, we get one or those storms where you can see bolts of lightning shoot down from the sky creating some great images as I try to capture them on film with my camera. Ah the joys of something so scary but so much fun to watch.

What’s your favorite weather moment?

Later!

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

My Mind Electric

I find myself lying awake at night with tons of thoughts flying through my mind a million miles per hour.

What are they? Well, glad you asked!

They are thoughts, fears, worries like how am I gonna pay this bill when I have $40 in my checking and need $153? Or Am I getting taken advantage of at work? Am I too nice? Am I too mean? When is the right time to look for a new job? What am I good at? Where do I fit in?

Questions, no answers, just question. Not on answer to be found. Until the morning when it’s just on step at a time one problem get solved right after another and everything is, well, good.

I think I like being put in an almost panic attack mode. Because I wake up worried then bang out on thing after another. I guess I’m good at that. Hey look another answer. I guess I do know what I am doing.

How about you?

Later!

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Metamorphosis

When I was little (Oh, wow this is going to be interesting) I was told, like most kids, I was mostly fearless. I wasn’t shy I would walk up to people in a store and strike up a conversation with them.

I would talk about anything and they would usually entertain me by continuing the conversation. And this would continue until my mom or someone pulled me away.

Well let’s flash forward to now.

I fear calling people on the phone. I don’t know why. I think I’m just sick of using the phone. You want me e-mail me. I know it seems a lot less personal, but that’s me. But on the other hand people always say, “We have to do something, call me” Um… Why can’t they call me and ask hey want to so something?

Why do I always have to make the plans, when it was their idea in the first place?

I sound so whiny, huh?

Oh well I hate strange social situations. If I go somewhere I need someone I know to be there also, or I will probably do one of 3 things:

1) Stand in a far corner away from everything waiting for someone to talk to me.

2) Just look around and leave

3) Freak Out break out in sweat and run away

Is this normal? I dunno. I think at some point everyone changes and for some reason I don't know why I did.

Later!

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

It's been awhile

No, that's all of that song you get! Yeah, I took a little blogging break. It's now been a year and two days since I graduated from college. Time really does fly, I remember January like it was yesterday.

So a year ago I seem to be the same situation. I hav two jobs, one I am actualy doing more in than last year, but it still pays nothing. The other is the same old job, which at some point I'll want to hurt some people because of their stupidity. But alas it pays more than the other job, which is why I'm still there.

The biggest difference I see is in the bank account. I had more money in my account when I was in college then I do now. I hate being so broke that I created the "Hey, I don't need lunch today diet!" Not that great, I know but what else can I do? I'm basically a hermit.

I can't go anywhere because I have no money and owe money for tution, car insurence and car payment, which are all do the same day. How bad does that suck.

Don't give me that "Welcome to the Real World" speach. It's CRAP! If the world isn't real until after you graduate college then what was it then and before that fake? Besides I've seen the "Real World" and all they do is drink heavily, party and fight with each other. Then they come back and compete for great prizes on the inferno.

I hope everyone gets that last paragraph. Oh, well!

Later!

I have no clue what I want to do since I graduated college. So, I am just going to say whatever is on my mind.I can be bitter, but mostly sarcastic, but always try to make a point. So enjoy my thoughts.

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